Inside the Head of a Neurotic

Mon, 27 Jul 2009 05:49:50 GMT

How time flies when your having fun, right? - This would have been appropriate if we spent the whole of 1 year with all smiles and laughter. But it was never all pink tainted. We had our moments.. But we got through them.. together. And yesterday,we celebrated the first milestone.. LOL... T'was fun and wet... and.. hahaha... memorable.

We woke up and were greeted by the darkness of the morning. Apparently, there was a low pressure area -something which will be the cause of the whole-day rain... Not a great way to start but it's ok.. nothing can dampen my mood.. except him... ^_^

It started raining even before we left the house. So while waiting for the rain to subside a bit, we played Final Fantasy Echoes of Time. After around an hour, we went out to eat lunch. It was 2:00pm.

Then we rode a jeep to Cubao. When we got off, the rain started pouring hard. So we had 2 choices (which were my choices prior to the day). Go to UN or to Makati. I asked for a sign.. (if the next person to exit that door is a girl, we go to Makati, if a guy, we go to UN). We went to Makati.. ^_^ The pictures will speak for themselves..

We have the target papers and the bullet shells to prove how good we were! hahaha....

Ok.. so after 50 bullets, we went back to Glorietta to play a round or 2 of GF/DM and eat dinner. It was still raining cats and dogs.. (and didn't stop til we were about to go home at.. 9:30?)

We ate at The Texas Smoke'em...

T'was a boring Greenbelt that day but we were enjoying the day together, we couldn't care less. But of course we have to go home so after eating, we went to SM for sketch to get his dose of Marvel vs Capcom and then we went home...

Oh... after dinner, he gave me his gift.....

Clue? I'm wearing them in this picture. ^_^

We're planning to spend more years together, of course... A great year to start.. Omedetou... Kyo!

Meme tiemz!!!

Fri, 24 Oct 2008 16:31:23 GMT

1. There are 30 questions.
2. Next to each number, write only the name of the person in your friends list who fits.
3. Answer one question with one name.
4. Don't tell the questions to anyone who isn't doing the meme.

1.fallenw0man
2.freudian_bitch
3.destinfaroda
4.gladeis
5.dahliasatea
6.goldeneggy
7.sublime_surot
8.quad_latte
9.void_and_hollow
10.carisse_aco
11. si_jake_po
12.reinster
13.maeann
14.hao_xiao
15.devione_angeli
16. mayfairwitch13
17.thecomstarbaby
18.deadkarrot
19.aya_shinden
20.freeze_up
21. poweredbygravy
22.menismastah
23.killer_gei
24.maikophoenix
25.mystarfish
26.somewhat_else
27.himnemosyne
28.deybs
29.hreowan
30. This made my head hurt. LOL

Something done while bored

Fri, 15 Aug 2008 18:52:14 GMT

I was browsing through friends' posts when I stumbled upon Mommy's blog on 'their" zodiacs' compatibility. So I googled mine and B's. I've read 2 site results so far. One is posted on my PPF shrine and the other, is here.. LOL

from: http://astrology.about.com/od/libralovematches/qt/LibraAquarius.htm

Love Match - Libra and Aquarius

Levitating Love

By Molly Hall, About.com

Cardinal Air and Fixed Air

Sparks fly when Libra and Aquarius meet, and conversation is the doorway to rapture. First dates gain momentum because there's a mental rapport between these two air signs. Libra likes to initiate ideas, and Aquarius responds with a wholly original perspective. Aquarius warms to Libra's clear-eyed and balanced sythesizing. Libra is awed by the leaps of logic and unusual ways that Aquarius frames ideas. Both are mentally stimulated, and this serves as a basis for all their adventures together.

Libra is attracted to the detached cool of Aquarius, and comfortable with that airy 'friends' approach at first. The Waterbearer oohs and aahs over Libra's way with style, and graceful public demeanor. Aquarius is more at home among friends, while Libra likes to do things as a twosome. They're both social animals, and that colors how they spend vacations and weekends. But Libra likes to be romantically wooed, even in a committed partnership, and will want some time alone with Aquarius to rekindle the spark.

If Libra is indecisive, wanting to include all options, Aquarius can be fixed in their thinking. Libra shows Aquarius the balancing view, and helps them present their ideas in the best light. The genius thinking patterns of Aquarius embolden Libra to follow their own threads of inspiration. Aquarius can be stubborn in its dogged pursuit of its interests, and that spurs Libra on to higher heights, too. These two inhabit the world of ideas. As they share life's fascinations in an atmosphere of mutual respect, their love grows.

Famous Couples: Ang Lee (Libra) and Zhang Ziyi (Aquarius); Franklin D. Roosevelt (Aquarius) and Eleanor Roosevelt (Libra); John Lennon (Libra) and Yoko Ono (Aquarius); Brigitte Bardot (Libra) and Roger Vadim (Aquarius); Clark Gable (Aquarius) and Carole Lombard (Libra); Kelly Preston (Libra) and John Travolta (Aquarius); Geena Davis (Aquarius) and Jeff Goldblum (Libra); John Lemmon (Aquarius) and Felicia Farr (Libra); Alan Cumming (Aquarius) and Saffron Burrows (Libra)

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I really can't help it but smile..

Writer's Block: Six-Word Story

Thu, 14 Aug 2008 18:07:26 GMT

Hemingway was once challenged to write a story in only six words. His response? “For sale: baby shoes, never worn.” He is believed to have called it his greatest literary work ever. Can you write a story in six words?

Submitted By femspectre

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Infancy, childhood, puberty, adulthood, decay, death.

Blow by Blow

Wed, 13 Aug 2008 12:12:38 GMT

Plurk.com

Your result for Which Chess Piece are You Test?...

The Queen's Knight

Congrats! Only 4-5% of the population score this!

The Queen’s Knight is armed with rose-colored glasses. The mundane comes to life and nature becomes expressive of spirit. The interesting thing about this Knight is the ability to switch from fantasy to reality. There are exceptions to the rule, but this is the type that may have had imaginary friends as a youngster. Their stuffed animals also were great companions. The Queen’s Knight will see the good in almost anyone or anything – but their depth of emotion can remain hidden even from themselves. Circumstances tend to reveal sudden responses.

Not all life is rosy and this Knight is not exempt from disappointment or frustration with humanity. They may feel incompetence when dealing with their own ethical values. Things aren’t simply white black, but a grand battle of Good versus Evil. Evil must be reckoned with but Good shall eventually win. It is not that they fight evil, but that they fight for the essence of moral good. Doing something good is quite satisfactory for them and indeed increases their happiness. It is when something is not reciprocated to them that they are saddened and disappointed by others. They learn that others aren’t as self-sacrificing.

The Queen's Knight is dominated by an inner world of intense feeling and deeply rooted ethics. They seek to form their life based on their views. They are highly curious of those around them so are readily accepting of others unless their values are being threatened. They promote insight and understanding amongst others and contribute well thought ideas. They however can be a bit too idealistic.

Take Which Chess Piece are You Test? at HelloQuizzy

Meme tiem.... Random posting.

Thu, 17 Jul 2008 13:31:06 GMT

Your EQ is 140

You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.

You are warm and open. Even when life gets you down, you're unafraid of the world and its challenges.

You are comfortable with who you are. And you accept your weaknesses - as well as the weaknesses of others.

While you are quite stable, you don't respond perfectly to every bad situation that comes up.

But you have enough emotional intelligence to know when you need a course correction.

What's Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

eto muna... sa dami ng nangyayari... baka tl/dr na naman ang post ko... hayz...

Nakaka LOL

Mon, 19 May 2008 13:23:48 GMT

You Are An Understanding Girlfriend!

You care about your guy, so much that you tend to put him first

And while this makes your relationship smooth, sometimes you let big things slide

Still be your understanding self, but if something really bothers you - let your guy know

He'll still want you, even if you occasionally disagree

What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?

What Nonaleam Means

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.

You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.

At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.

You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.

You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.

Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.

You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.

At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.

You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.

You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

just had to post it. hahahahaha!!!

Post ko sa PPF forums, hope this helps some of you too! ^__^

Mon, 10 Mar 2008 08:30:36 GMT

Ok, since I can't visit the forums everyday to update ( not anymore :( ), I'm writing this down on paper first then type it when I have the time. I actually thought about this topic while I'm cooking breakfast for myself 2 weeks ago (yes mine, eto na po) for myself alone in my apartment. hehehe... Ms. Chii, this may help. :)

Here it goes:

So, here i am cooking and bored out of my wits and i ask myself: how do i manage to keep myself sane? Sane meaning i can still carry out a conversation with a fellow human being and they don't think of - or sometimes they do but not to the extent of actually- calling an ambulance and sending me to loony bin. as i've disclaimed when i posted the Defence Mechanisms, i don't have a PhD but i do have a list of simple things i do that may benefit the stressed out people who read my posts.

These are my anti stressors: (follow at your own risk)

Observe your surroundings.

Coming to and from work, i use public transportation. And to get my mind off the "urgent things" i NEED to think about, i usually observe the people and the passing surroundings. I don't know about you guys but i often notice those things that "busy" people often neglect coz most of the time, they're too preoccupied with what they'll be doing at home or at work - the blue sky, a full moon, butterflies in the metro, an old couple holding hands on the street- i see these things and become thankful that there is still beauty amidst the chaotic monotony of everyday life and THIS makes me feel better.

So the next time you feel really stressed out, OBSERVE. Almost always there is something that will make you smile, even for just a while, and that's a start, right?

SMILE often!

Yes, sometimes even if you don't have a reason to! and yes, i'm not kidding. But i'm also not saying to do it everytime and everywhere coz that's just wrong! hahaha... We have this saying in the call center business: Smile, your customers can hear it. And if you listen to calls, it's actually true! and this is the usual catalyst of a conversation. A simple smile can do wonders for you and the people around you. But of course, you can't always be happy or contented with your life so it is very hard, right? So with regard to this, i'm going to share something.

One fact about myself is that i'm generally shallow. A corny joke can give me a stomachache from laughing so hard, a good look at the beautiful moon leaves me awestruck, Nuriko dying in Fushigi Yuugi made me cry for 30 minutes non-stop, and sometimes, FEU losing to any other school in UAAP makes my blood boil i want to punch someone. Since i am like this to minute stuff, imagine my emotion when something "big" comes up! I really can't explain it but letting myself "feel" strongly about things help me get by. Coz i know that those emotions WON'T last. And what i do is that i let myself feel then i choose to look at whatever it is positively so i can STILL smile, however big the problem is. BUT, this works for me coz i'm an eternal optimist. How about the over thinkers, the pessimists and the apathetic?

If you are not like me, then let me try to persuade you in practice of smiling by doing a simple exercise: Look at yourself in the mirror and just smile. Your face lights up and even for a little bit, you feel your heart's burden diminishing, right? That's the power of smiling. Feels good, ne? How much more if you couple it a positive outlook? Just try it and you may actually like it. Start small by showing those pearly whites when you feel good or when you see something cute or what not, ok? PM me for feedback on this. :)

Appreciate Everything.

I was depressed for the longest time last year when i started the practice of appreciation. I appreciated the fact that i didn't cry that much, that i was still breathing (coz the experience felt like slow death), that i was given the opportunity to undo things i did, that ihave a job i can focus on, that i lost my fair-weathered friends and built a stronger bond with my true friends, I became thankful for the depression, the anger, the memories and everything else.Coz at the end of the day or when we look back to it, these things are what molded me into what i am today. If i hadn't gone through the ordeal, i may still be vulnerable and weak in my facing the ordeals that this b*tch we call life throws at me. Now i can say, "Bring it on!" and know that i have a fair chance of winning.

So, the next time something happens to you, may it be good or bad, take time to say thank you to whoever it is that you believe in for giving you the opportunity to experience it. It only means that He believes that you can transform it to something beneficial and you'll come out alive. Be appreciative of the good things because they make you feel good and be thankful of the bad things because they give you the chance to learn a thing or two about life and yourself. Those learnings will be your sword and shield althroughout your existance. Use them wisely.

Lastly, have some ALONE TIME

Even for just one hour a week, devote some of your time to yourself. And i'm talking about no cellphone, no PC in front of you alone because those things still connects you to people. You need time to listen to yourself. One hour a week can do wonders for your mind and body. if you have money, indulge/ pamper yourself. If not, just go to your room, lie down and give your mind the leeway to think and feel everything (there's a theme to my post, ne?).

If you've just been dumped or rejected, let yourself feel the sadness and anger AND be totally honest. don't try to intellectualize your experience and start arguing with yourself. Just let your mind and heart do the wandering until they get tired and move to another topic. It is true that familiarity erodes even the most awful of memories. So instead of forcing yourself to not think about it, let it all out. you're alone anyway. This also applies to work related and family problems too.

Now, if you're contented and happy, this one hour is intended for making yourself feel good and patting yourself on the back. Congratulate yourself for a week well lived and give thanks. Because you know, dealing with people is tiring even if you're perfectly fine so make time for yourself to unwind and recharge for the week ahead.

There! i'm already tired of writing. Ubos na english ko... no matter how confusing, I still hope this helps!

something i did.

Mon, 07 Jan 2008 19:43:58 GMT

i, by no means, am able to explain the endless train of incomprehensible thoughts in my head into something sensible.

i feel and feeling alone makes me vulnerable.
i feel and feeling this is wrong, in more ways than i can possibly imagine.
i feel and i know that it's going to be the same as before. that endless cycle of ups and downs, of smiles and frowns.
i feel and tries to cease that which grows each day, each moment, each breath....

i feel... then nothing.

i embrace this nothing which consumes my being.
this nothing which is more refreshing, more welcomed.
in this nothingness, i am able to move on.
in this nothing i am void.
in this... i am free.

wish

Mon, 17 Dec 2007 21:21:57 GMT

I'm just wishing that there was never such a thing as INCEST...

'nuff said

*coughs like hell*

Something to make me smile

Tue, 11 Dec 2007 17:02:27 GMT

If LiveJournal were an anime...
LiveJournal Username
Do you watch anime?
Do you speak Japanese?
Do you read Japanese?
What if LiveJournal were an anime?
Pick a Beach Boys song.

The performer of the opening theme	loveje
The magical girl	jactinglim
The talking animal	may_12
The lecherous old man	deybs
The teenager who uses ancient magic to win games	fallenw0man
The fifteen-year-old Japanese girl with blond hair and a D cup	xtraryce
Number of seasons it would last	23,905


This Fun Quiz created by Elizabeth at BlogQuiz.Net

Leo Horoscope at DailyHoroscopes.Biz

anyway.... one word: NEMESIS

why? Basic man sya... naka 200++ combo pa din ako... hahahaha!!!!

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last friday was a blast! though i was awake for more than 40 hours that day and had to go to a medical mission after 2 hours of well-deserved shut-eye, it was well worth it! ^.^
~~in more ways than one~~

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Was given an i-pod nano 4 Gb by my aunt. a different design than what we have here in the Phil. either way....

^_________________________________^

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My cousin is a hunk. a TOTAL hunk. too bad he's my cousin... hahahaha!!!!

what!!!!????

Fri, 28 Sep 2007 17:47:29 GMT

browsing through my friends' posts really shocks me sometimes. i just found out that someone from my past created a new account here.. hmm.. since feb i think. well, based on the profile anyway. good for him/her/it! hehehe..

paranoia, delusion, selfcenteredness, idea of reference, whatever it is, i think i should be careful.. nothing good will ever come out of having someone know too much.. heheheh!!

guys, panoorin nyo born killers! or even read the book. it's good. ^.^

dapat di ko na makalimutan mag friends only.. pwet..

Quote

Wed, 29 Aug 2007 17:00:31 GMT

Someone sent this to me.. just a few hours ago.. ^.^

"Yeah, it can be cute when people who have a lot in common date each other. But isn't it more fun to date someone you can argue with? and then in the end agree to disagree then hold each other tight? I mean really.. why would you want to date yourself?"

LURRVVE IT! teehee.. especially if you're.. secret!

Elevator

Tue, 28 Aug 2007 23:46:12 GMT

Wala lang. just found something that happened to us earlier funny.
galing kami ng cancer break ni kelly, we rode the elevator and pressed floor 32, 34, and 36 just for the heck of it.. lasing na sa antok.. 6.6

anyway, come 30th floor, the door opened and someone walked in.. (cutie sabi ng kelly. i really didn't notice.)
then i said.. "4 yung nakapindot, 3 lang tayo.. may mumu dito.."

then the guy chuckled.. and said something like, "that's funny" and got off the 31st floor..

nagkatawanan lang kami ni kelly.. "close kami?" hahaha.. dapat pala nagpakilala na ko.. " hi.. i'm nona . and you are?" ^.^ kaso sarado na yung door.. hehehe..

yun lang.. worst week last week! ^.^

Bakla

Sun, 24 Jun 2007 13:52:30 GMT

"Ano ka ba, kung lalaki lang ako malamang... kaso bakla ako eh.."

Hahaha!! Darn it. sinabi sakin ng friend ko yan while we were on our way home. I was telling him my story and was asking, "ano ba nakita sakin nung mga yun?" O di ba? so sad.. hahaha..

hay nako talaga... most of my friends are gays. they're amazed by how i can really jive with them. gay lingo? aral ko.. san ka pa? pero ang sad kasi, though some of them are really b.f material, wala.. walang pag-asa!! hahah.. kuki....

Ang paulit ulit na song sa I-Pod ko

Sat, 21 Apr 2007 14:32:48 GMT

LET ME GO
3 DOORS DOWN

One more kiss could be the best thing
Or one more lie could be the worst
And all these thoughts are never resting
And your not something I deserve

CHORUS
In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
And this seems real to me
And you love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you don't know who I am
So let me go, let me go

I dream ahead to what I hope for
And I turn my back on loving you
How can this love be a good thing
And I know what I'm going through

CHORUS
In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
And this seems real to me
And you love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you don't know who I am
So let me go, just let me go, let me go

And no matter how hard I try
I can't escape these things inside
I know, I know
But all the pieces fall apart
You will be the only one who knows, who knows

You love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you don't know who I am
So let me go, just let me go

(you don't know)
You love me but you don't
You love me but you don't
(you don't know)
You love me but you don't know who I am

(you don't know)
You love me but you don't
You love me but you don't
(you don't know)
You love me but you don't know me

Pootah..

Thu, 19 Apr 2007 17:20:18 GMT

kailangang di na makinig sa sign.. hahah.. eto oh basahin nyo..

"It was but yesterday we met in a dream.
You have sung to me in my aloneness,
and I of your longings have built a tower in the sky.
But now our sleep has fled and our dream is over,
and it is no longer dawn.
The noontide is upon us and our half waking
has turned to fuller day,
and we must part.
If in the twilight of memory we should meet once more,
we shall speak again together
and you shall sing to me a deeper song.
And if our hands should meet in another dream
we shall build another tower in the sky."

tapos, yung sign na hihingin ko pa lang may sagot na.. Pablo Neruda pala yung writer nun.. potah!..

Ok lang.. he speaks french anyway.. (looseness of association.. yeah yeah.. ) and.. he's independent.

a sign

Tue, 17 Apr 2007 17:19:23 GMT

I do not love you as if you were a salt rose or a topaz
or the air o'er carnations that fire shoots off
I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,
in secret 'tween the shadow and the soul.

I love you without knowing how or when, or from where
I love you straightforwardly. without complexities or pride
I love you because i know no other way than this
so close that your hand on my chest is my hand
so close that when you close your eyes, i fall asleep..

Prozac

Thu, 12 Apr 2007 15:05:11 GMT

That's what i need..

Why? because now, i feel like i'm the lowest being on earth.
I don't deserve to live..

Actually, i can do something about that. One of my friends asked me to buy him 1k worth of valium since i do know someone who can supply. I know what he's going to do about it since i asked him..

"That's the easiest way out dear. you want to be called a coward?"
"All my life, it had always been hard. Just this once, i want to take the easiest way out. and this one time will be my last."
"..."

the next shift, when i told him the earliest i can give the poison is on sunday, he cancelled the order. That's a good thing. for him. but now, i'm stuck with 4 packs of valium. I told my friend that i only have money for 2 packs. he said fine. he'd split the order. 2-2.

So there. on Saturday night, i'd have 2 packs of valium waiting for me.

what i need is prozac though..

A good read..

Tue, 03 Apr 2007 18:55:59 GMT

this was sent to me by my team leader.. I hope we can ALL learn from this.

ENHANCING RELATIONSHIPS
Trust..

TRUST is a very important factor for all relationships. When trust is broken, it is the end of the relationship. Lack of trust leads to suspicion, suspicion generates anger, anger causes enmity and enmity may result in separation.

A telephone operator told me that one day she received a phone call. She answered, "Public Utilities Board." There was silence. She repeated, "PUB." There was still no answer. When she was going to cut off the line, she Heard a lady's voice, "Oh, so this is PUB. Sorry, I got the number from my Husband's pocket but I do not know whose number it is."

Without mutual trust, just imagine what will happen to the couple if the telephone operator answered with just "hello" instead of "PUB".
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No Pointing Fingers

A man asked his father-in-law, "Many people praised you for a successful marriage. Could you please share with me our secret?" The father-in-law
answered in a smile, "Never criticise your wife for her shortcomings or when she does something wrong. Always bear in mind that because of her shortcomings and weaknesses, she could not find a better husband than you."

We all look forward to being loved and respected. Many people are afraid of losing face. Generally, when a person makes a mistake, he would look around to find a scapegoat to point the finger at. This is the start of a war. We should always remember that when we point one finger at a person, the other four fingers are pointing at ourselves.

If we forgive the others, others will ignore our mistake too.
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Creating Perfect Relationships..?

A person visited the government matchmaker for marriage, SDU, and requested "I am looking for a spouse. Please help me to find a suitable one." The SDU officer said, "Your requirements, please." "Oh, good looking, polite, humorous , sporty, knowledgeable, good in singing and dancing. Willing to accompany me the whole day at home during my leisure hour, if I don't go out. Telling me interesting stories when I need companion for conversation and be silent when I want to rest." The officer listened carefully and replied, "I understand you
need television."

There is a saying that a perfect match can only be found between a blind wife and a deaf husband ,because the blind wife cannot see the faults of the husband and the deaf husband cannot hear the nagging of the wife. Many couples are blind and deaf at the courting stage and dream of perpetual perfect relationship. Unfortunately, when the excitement of love wears off, they wake up and discover that marriage is not a bed of roses. The nightmare begins.
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No Overpowering..

Many relationships fail because one party tries to overpower another, or demands too much. People in love tend to think that love will conquer all and their spouses will change the bad habits after marriage. Actually, this is not the case. There is a Chinese saying which carries the meaning that "It is easier to reshape a mountain or a river than a person's character."

It is not easy to change. Thus, having high expectation on changing the spouse character will cause disappointment and unpleasantness.

It would be less painful to change ourselves and lower our expectations..

this was one of my mistakes... i vowed never to make it again.
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Right Speech..

There is a Chinese saying which carries the meaning that "A speech will either prosper or ruin a nation." Many relationships break off because of wrong speech. When a couple is too close with each other, we always forget mutual respect and courtesy. We may say anything without considering if it would hurt the other party.

A friend and her millionaire husband visited their construction site. A worker who wore a helmet saw her and shouted,"Hi, Emily! Remember me? We used to date in the secondary school." On the way home, her millionaire husband teased her, "Luckily you married me. Otherwise you will be the wife of a construction worker." She answered ,"You should appreciate that you married me. Otherwise, he will be the millionaire and not you."

Frequently exchanging these remarks plants the seed for a bad relationship. It's like a broken egg - cannot be reversed.
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Personal Perception..

Different people have different perception. One man's meat could be another man's poison. A couple bought a donkey from the market. On the way home,a boy commented, "Very stupid. Why neither of them ride on the donkey?"Upon hearing that, the husband let the wife ride on the donkey. He walked besides them. Later, an old man saw it and commented, "The husband is the head of family. How can the wife ride on the donkey while the husband is on foot?" Hearing this, the wife quickly got down and let the husband ride on the donkey.

Further on the way home, they met an old Lady. She commented, "How can the man ride on the donkey but let the wife walk. He is no gentleman."

The husband thus quickly asked the wife to join him on the donkey. Then, they met a young man. He commented, "Poor donkey, how can you hold up the weight of two persons. They are cruel to you." Hearing that, the husband and wife immediately climbed down from the donkey and carried it on their shoulders.

It seems to be the only choice left. Later, on a narrow bridge, the donkey was frightened and struggled. They lost their balance and fell into the river. You can never have everyone praise you, nor will everyone condemn you. Never in the past, not at present, and never will be in the future.

Thus, do not be too bothered by others words if our conscience is clear..
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Be Patient..

This is a true story which happened in the States. A man came out of his home to admire his new truck. To his puzzlement, his three-year-old son was happily hammering dents into the shiny paint of the truck. The man ran to his son, knocked him away, hammered the little boy's hands into pulp as punishment. When the father calmed down, he rushed his son to the hospital.

Although the doctor tried desperately to save the crushed bones, he finally had to amputate the fingers from both the boy's hands. When the boy woke up from the surgery & saw his bandaged stubs, he innocently said, " Daddy,I'm sorry about your truck." Then he asked, "but when are my fingers going to grow back?" The father went home & committed suicide.

Think about this story the next time someone steps on your feet or u wish to take revenge. Think first before u lose your patience with someone u love. Trucks can be repaired.. Broken bones & hurt feelings often can't. Too often we fail to recognise the difference between the person and the performance. We forget that forgiveness is greater than revenge.

People make mistakes. We are allowed to make mistakes. But the actions we take while in a rage will haunt us forever . . .

kill me.. hahahaha!!!

Sat, 24 Mar 2007 16:02:28 GMT

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quotable quotes.. from me..

"Give me to *****? why? am i too much of a slut to you now?"

another one..

"Basta kabit, loser."

..... ellipses....

Wed, 21 Mar 2007 05:19:39 GMT

wala na.. nawala na yung promise ko ng tomorrow.. hahaha.. di kasi kami makaaccess ng other websites these past few days.. hay.. *excuses excuses* teehee..

Anyway, pasadahan na lang to ng nangyari noh?

pagkagising ko kinabukasan, katabi ko si J2 sa kanan, si C sa kaliwa.. ayun.. hahaha.. wala naman. balot na balot ako dahil napakalamig sa kwarto. aircon kasi.. after a few minutes of stretching at pakiramdaman kung sino unang babangon, tumayo na rin si C. may pasok pa sya eh.. hahaha.. we ate breakfast, nood ng tv si c, Dl kami ng songs ni J2.. around 12:30 (yata) umalis na kami kasi nga, late na tong si C.. hinatid namin sya ni J2 sa school..

Pagkahatid, wala pa ko ganang umuwi.. so we went to J2's place sa las piñas. hmm.. wala lang.. road tripp kainit! amp talaga.. pero ok lang.. di boring kasama yun kahit tahimik.. astig nga eh.. ^.^

nakakatuwa.. nakarating din ako sa bahay nila. nakita ko yung tita at tito nya.. yung kwarto nya.. naglaro kami ng PS2 ( ay.. ako lang pala.. tulog sya.. hahaha) ayun.. asikaso ako astig. tapos binigay pa nya yung magic cards (literally) sakin. dun na din ako naligo kasi.. 6 pm na nandun pa ko.. may pasok pala ako ng 10 pm (yun ang akala ko nung una.. potah.. 11:30 pala). he decided to drop me off sa work (buti nga makati eh.. sabi nya before kami pumunta sa kanila, sa monumento nya ako ihahatid eh.. ^.^).

May mga bago akong upload na music sa ipod ko, sya rin.. so habang nagroroad trip kami papuntang Glorietta (binalak lang naming pumunta.. aga pa kasi eh.. ), we were smoking and singing our heart out.. lumagpas tuloy kami sa ayala! hahaha.. we had to take a detour sa rockwell.. ayun disgrasya.. while passing buendia, nahuli kami.. instant 300 sa pulis.. dapat aawayin ko kaso ipit si j2. lisensya nya yun eh.. ayun.. badtrip lang..

Glorietta, we ate, hang out sa favorite kong place dun.. then we talked.. comportable silence and conversations about stuff.. tagal na ring di ko yun naexperience.. hay..
around 9 pm, hinatid na nya ko sa work.. ayun.. ^.^

then, narealize ko... more than 24 hours pala kami magkasama.. ayun lang!

Fri, 09 Mar 2007 23:46:49 GMT

Hmm.. I can't really explain it well right now since my head freaking hurts and I got an Auto- zero on my Quality for the week. So long to my PhP 2000.. damn..

And.. goodluck naman sa tomorrow di ba? ilang days na ang nakaraan? hahaha.. teka.. before i continue my story, give me a moment to thank someone/something.

Thanks Yumi. Since you've entered my life, my sight has been clearer, sensations heightened, and my view of the world.. changed. You healed my heart and renewed my soul. i guess i can try again. It is over.. the past. We live in the present and that's all that matters. Transformation, Trust, Silence.. let me continue following this path. the path to Consciousness. Stay with me and guide my every path. I now know how to recognize the signs.. i now know how to silence my mind.. now, i need to know how to hone my gift.. be there.

(only one person could understand the above statement. uhm.. right, kamunduhan? teehee...)

Ok.. now that's over.. back to my story!

tomorrow.. hahaha.. pauwi na ko.

Dating Friends

Tue, 06 Mar 2007 01:27:42 GMT

I didn't go home yesterday and had to go straight to work. My sandal broke and the MMDA got 300 Php from us but.. IT WAS SO GOD DAMN WORTH IT! teehee..

Yesterday was my off day. I was bored at home so i texted J1 telling him that if he wasn't doing anything that night, i'd go to their place and hang out. He was ok with it so.. that was that. nyahehehe.. Anyway, after he said yes, i texted J2 and asked him if HE could hang out with us since he lives in Las Piñas. He immediately said ok and said we meet up at C's place before going to j1's. Around 5:30pm, i was on my way...

On the way, tensai texted me: "Look at the moon," and i did.. OMG! I fell in love.. I was at the monumento cirle walking to the LRT when i read the message. When i looked up.. there it was.. glowing, with all its majesty.. slightly covered by strips of clouds.. seems like an arm's length away.. damn! it took my breath away.

7:00pm, i was walking on a familiar route.. to C's place.. t'was really nerve-wracking since HE lives across the street (i want to see him but i don't want him to see me. he told me he didn't want to. he wants to forget. i want to grant him his wish. i love him enough to not exist physically for him. if the mere sight of him irritates, it's the least i can do, right?). I was a little nostalgic and sad but well.. took a deep breath and let it go. Texted J2 saying i was already walking and when i got to the gate, he was there waiting for me.

C's place: still full of wandering spirits (I tell you this now since this will be the main subject of our rendevous that night). I was introduced to C's mom, ate dinner, watched TV, and texted J1 if he's already home (he went to SM with his "friends".. teehee..). Around 8:00pm, we decided to head to J1's place. rode j2's ride.. and we're off!

8:05pm: Saw J1's face and it looked like he's trying to celebrate the holy week early this year. "Wag tayo dito. alis tayo!" ("Let's go out! let's not stay here.") was the first thing that came out of his mouth. Looked at him again and decided that it WOULD be better to do that.. We went to Mall of Asia.

8:15pm: Walking around MOA, i looked like Shancai with the F3. nyehehe.. anyway, the baywalk was closed for construction ( a bummer since the reason we chose the place was because we wanted to sit and talk overlooking the bay). however, we found a nice spot outside to sit and talk.

8:25pm: I run out of cigs. J1 looked like he's about to explode. j2 asked if i wanted menthol and i said yes. j1 asked c to go with j2 to buy. i knew he wanted to talk only to me at that time and the moment they were out of sight, he did. Good thing i brought my tarot cards. I was able to "read" him. he stopped speaking when he saw j2 and c coming back.. that was ok. he said enough.

8:35pm: Read c's and j2's cards. as it turned out, J2 has a problem as well. They started opening up to each other including j1. It was kinda funny coz i asked them to hang-out to have a good time and there i was, in the midst of an open forum.. t'was the first time we really "talked". A serious talk not excluding the usual asaran. C told J2, "pre, kaya nga barkada di ba?" ("dude, that's why it's called friendship, right?") and i was proud of him for saying that.. they're maturing in front of my eyes.

9:00pm: Asked if we can go someplace else to continue talking. while on our way back to the car, i had coffee craving. i told them and they agreed to go to StarBucks. We were planning to go to bay walk or taft but when we passed by CCP, C said there's a starbucks nearby. C made a left turn and there we were.. at Starbucks CCP, overlooking Manila Bay, drinking coffee, talking and looking at the moon once in a while. Relaxing and.. well.. romantic. *sigh* We talked for hours about life, elementals, spirit guides, more problems, my problem, the ghosts who showed themselves that night, and the future. Had a lot of insights about those 3. A very fruitful day indeed. BTW, it was while walking to SB that i broke the tip (about 1/4 of the whole) of my right sandal.. nyahehe... i had to walk with my toes hovering (still do up to this very moment.. will tell you why later.).

11:45pm: Still at SB. J2 is insisting that i spend the night at C's place and help him with his project. Told my mom i wasn't going home and that was it. C's dad called and asked him to come home. he said he will. But when i said "tara na," (let's go!) he said, "Wag muna. ok lang yan." (It's ok. Let's stay a bit more.). flattering.. he's the most "kj" of the bunch but he's the one insisting we stay.. ^.^

12:30am: I asked if we can go home. they said yes (finally!). Dropped off j1 at his place and went straight to C's place. C lent me his shirt (too big i tell you!), his mom's pjs and a new tooth brush since i didn't bring any of my toiletries. Ate(again), checked friendster, pointed to them my "boylets" (nyahahaha!), kulitan, and slept. I told j2 to wake me up if he needed any help but he never did. We slept at C's room with me in the middle of the bed. hahaha! even while sleeping i had 2 bodyguards. Sweet bastards.. ^.^

*part 2 tomorrow. I have to go home. my mom's gonna kill me!*

Omae Wa..

Sat, 03 Mar 2007 22:37:56 GMT

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